These are the days when anything goes

Sat, 01 Jul 2006 14:58:32 GMT

so... you go through life, shit happens. and you learn who your true friends are... thank you, i love you shannon.

Fri, 27 Jan 2006 21:44:33 GMT

so yea it has been a while. i'm first gonna start out by saying matt and i are not together anymore. thank god. there was so much wrong with that. and he turned out to be an asshole. i can't even begin to name everything he did wrong and i still stayed with him. but finally he was like all the rest and came up with some excuse to dump me and i was heartbroken and now i'm happy. he calls me once in a while to rub shit in my face and piss me off. which he succeeds in doing so (the pissing me off part) i don't give a shit about him anymore. i don't like him and can't see how i could. blah. anyway. thanks to meagan i'm talkin to a boy named robby. hes the best. so sweet. i like him a lot. and thats all i'm gonna say.

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 02:32:23 GMT

matt and i are going out. as of last night/today. we spent sunday together. it was wonderful. :) hes nice to me!!!! finally a good boy. ah i'm so happy. i just hope it lasts... well... saturday was the state meet. we didn't do as good as we should have and that really sucks. but i talked to the assistant coach at FGCU today and i'm gonna go talk to the head coach when he gets back. so hopefully that will work out nicely. i'm probably gonna go there or FAU. not sure yet. i still gotta go tour FAU and i really wanna run so if FGCU agrees then i will probably be going there. coach wrote a letter to the FAU coach but i don't think he has replied yet... so i dunno. anyway i'm tired and the BOYFRIEND should be calling soon. AHHH! i have a boyfriend! haha this is great i love it...

Fri, 14 Oct 2005 15:21:02 GMT

its friday 11:15. i don't have to work today! we have a pep rally. im exhausted we had a workout yesterday that totally killed. i can feel myself just breaking down... and this weekend all i wanna do is hang out with my friends and i know i should be getting my sleep and resting and getting my work done. but i just wanna relax and have fun... i haven't seen blake in forever so hopefully we will hang out. we need each other. shit is crap right now for both of us... ugh i dont even know what to say. nothing exciting has happened cause there isnt time for anything exciting to happen..... i got new running shoes! yay! that was exciting... well it really was i was very happy cause my last ones were DEAD!!! there was like nothing left on them and my new ones are so pretty!

Thu, 06 Oct 2005 01:06:57 GMT

life is crappy right now. i hadn't seen shannon in like 3 weeks! i needed her so bad. i hung out with her at her work for a change. and then we went to walmart. i stayed the night at her house. and then monday we took the porsche to the beach! oh it was a beautiful day! but of course i had to leave at 1:30 cause i had practice and got bitched at for not planning on going. but yea i'm tired. i'm going to bed. i love my new horse! he is such a sweetie!!!!!

pictures.

Sun, 04 Sep 2005 15:06:19 GMT

me and blake

me and shannon

my horse pilot!!!

me at sanibel

the sisters.

sanibel

dinner on sanibel

me and my sis on sanibel... shuffling for sting rays!!!! ah!

cross country camp!!!!

Sat, 03 Sep 2005 21:44:54 GMT

this week has been absolutly wonderful. tim is amazing. he is so sweet. he suprised me on wednesday. and left a note on my car thursday. and he is just so sweet. i can't get over it. but he is out of town this weekend and i can't wait till he gets bck. i've spent this whole week with him. since the first day i met him i haven't gone a day without seeing him and i don't get to see him today or tomorrow. but we are spending all monday together well not all day. his plane lands about 1:30 and then he is coming over and we are going to tractor supply :) its gonna be fun i can't wait. and then we are gonna cuddle the rest of the day. i miss him so much its unreal.

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 00:48:37 GMT

friday night was teh football game. we lost against norht but i got to see shannon she looked so cute!!!! and i saw LARRY! and we hung out on saturday night. it was me june shay and eddie. and we were at the restraunt for like 2 hours and tehn came back to my house till midnight. and then sunday blake came over for a little bit and then i went to his house. hes moving in october. i'm gonna miss him so much. i dunno what i'm gonna do with out him. its gonan be weird... i don't really have much else to say. i dunno... i still love blake so much its so hard to be with him and know he isn't mine... oh well we're best firends so i guess thats good cause your best friend will always be there... well wildfire is back on bye kiddos.

Thu, 28 Jul 2005 03:07:55 GMT

i went to blakes house tonight. we ate chinese and watched TV. it was fun. i miss him... he makes me happy... i dunno... whatever... all i'm thinking about right now is last night and what would have happened if i kissed him. i was so nervous last night that i didn't and now i wish i would have. all i wanna do right now is kiss him. and i'm so mad at myself. ugh!!!!! i wanna talk to him but he isn't answering. we were gonna try and hang out tonight but he hasn't called me so whatever. i dunno. i think i like him. hes nice and cute and grr... i'm so mad!

Wed, 27 Jul 2005 15:29:16 GMT

well cheer camp was hell. i hated it. i usually don't like it but i still have fun and i had fun this year but camp really sucked. i only had fun when we were in the dorms or making fun of the staff and goofying off when we weren't supposed to. it was not good. but yesterday shay and i went to the beach we got burned! it is horible... my tummys a lobster! haha shay. we were making fun of this loud ass italian woman who pretty much shared her personal life with the people of FM Beach. and then i came home and went to shannons and we watched a walk to remember and took june home and i stopped by to see blake. :) and then we went to jeff's house and hung out with him and trevor and ian and chase. it was fun. but i did something stupid. cause i get shy and nervous and now i'm really pissed at myself... then we went back to shannons and went to bed and i woke up and came home and here i am.

Sat, 16 Jul 2005 16:30:51 GMT

sot hsi past week i was in North Carolina for cross country camp. it was a blast! we ran 2 times a day, went white water rafting, we found a lake with a rope that we jumped off. we went to this place called the factory with all these games and stuff it was like an arcade. hmmm. what else did we do... we boxed.. well i didn't but the guys and coach did. and then the owner came and yelled at us cause it was 1 in the morning. my legs are really sore. it was a bitch running up and down those hills. our cabins were on a realy steep hill... well i'm kinda tired of talkin bout that. it was fun but i'm glad to be home. i dont' wanna bore yall with all the details of the trip.

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 01:43:01 GMT

so i'm feelig better. shannon and katie and josh adn chris came to see me at work on monday. and then chase and i hung out at his house and played pool... i suck. and just talked and then watched some TV. and to i got up and went to the barn. had a nice ride... pilot (the horse... or pie pie) was being a brat. i got sun burned... but i had the opportunity to own a horse! omg i want to so bad. the lady has 2 and needs to get rid of one and shes GIVING him away. i would have to pay to board the horse. which is $335 a month which is a VERY good price but still too much. but.. maybe not. my mom was like your father would blow if he had to pay another $300 a month and i was like who said he would have to pay for it! oh i want a horse of my own so bad... i dunno.. they would let me execpt for the money. cause my dad will probably be like thats a lot of money i don't want you spending your money on that you work hard... but its for something i want to badly and would enjoy so much! i figured it out. i would have to work at least 16-17 hours a week. which would be easy! i would get my days during the week from 11-2 or 3 and then i would need one or 2 more shifts. which isn't hard at all... oh i want to so bad. i think i will ask him... he will probably say no... but how often do you get the chance for a free horse?!!!

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 20:13:07 GMT

this weekend sucked. i was up since 2:00am saturday morning throwing up for 9 hours... it was horible. i stayed on my bathroom floor for more than a day. i had a temp of 101.4 and couldn't take anything for it cause i would just throw it up. i couldn't even keep down water which really sucked cause i was so thursty from throwing up so much...now i'm tired and weak and have a headache... thats all i have to say because thats all that has happened in the past 2 days...

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 18:13:33 GMT

i'm bored and tired.. i've worn myself out this week... monday i had to get up and run then go to work and i had my exam that night. tuesday i had to get up and run then go to a doc appoint. came back home had the day off!! but had to take my other exam.. wednesday i didn't ahve to run but still had to get up and go to another doc. appt. and then i had to work. then i took katie some bena dn jerrys and flowers since she had surgery on tuesday and i didn't get home till 1:00ish and i got up the next morning at 5:30 to go running and realized how tired i was and fell back to sleep. and then i woke up for work and it was busy. didn't get home till 3:30ish and then i had to be back at 5:00 and i didn't get home till 9:45. and i went to bed and got up this morning at 5:30 and i wasn't gonna run but i made myself get up and it was a short run but i did it hard and then i had another doc appt. and then i had to work. but i got to leave early today it wasn't very busy... but yea my doc today said that i most likely had recovering stress fractures... isn't that lovely. so now he is making me wear this brace thing and he said that 2 people said it changed their lives... kelsey said she hated the damn thing. so i dunno. i can't imajine running with a silly contraption on my leg... i hate running with a knee brace on i wonder how this is gonna be... well i'm gonna go lay down. i'm tired. and have a headache. we have a car wash tomorrow and then i am going to the barn!! i ahven't riden in like 2 weeks! my chaps haven't come in yet. poo-y. :( and then i have to work tomorrow night and then sunday is my dad's company picnic which should be fun. just me and the pops are going... :)

stolen from caro.

Fri, 27 May 2005 13:43:14 GMT

I pretend that I'm glad you went away
These four walls closing more every day
And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
And I'm crying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Why didn't I say the things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a-tumblin' down
I can say it so clearly but you're nowhere around
The nights are so lonely the days are so sad
and I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me
I carry smile when I'm broken in two
And I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm trembling inside
And nobody knows it but me
Lie awake, it's a quarter past three
I'm screaming at night if I thought you'd hear me
Yeah, my heart is calling you
And nobody knows it but me
How blue can I get?
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
Billion words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know I'll be loving you still
The nights are so lonely the days are so sad
I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me
Tomorrow morning, I'm a hit a dusty road
Gonna find you, where ever, ever you might go
And I'm gonna load my heart and hope you come back to me

Thu, 19 May 2005 17:58:25 GMT

Take my Quiz

Thu, 19 May 2005 00:35:31 GMT

class was great tonight we had an exam then jackie and i went to mcdonalds. and then we came back and drew stick figures with quotes making fun of people at school. tomorrow is gonna be a bitch. its lab! blah!

What You Really Think Of Your Friends

Bette is your soulmate.

You truly love Jackie.

You consider Megan your true friend.

You know that Shannon is always thinking of you.

You'll remember Heather for the rest of your life.

You secretly think Bette is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.

You secretly think that Kariann is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.

You secretly think that Blake is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Blake changes lovers faster than underwear.

You secretly think Christine is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Christine has a hidden internet romance.

What Do You Think of Your Friends?

i love my boyfriend!

Sat, 14 May 2005 15:00:44 GMT

thursday and yesterday were amazing!!! i saw blake on thursday. i was awesome. omg i missed him so much and it felt so good to see him after all this time. i meet him friend thomas... hes crazy but cool. hey he brought blake to my house so thats big points for him. and friday i went to the horse farm with courtney and i'm gonna start riding there. i'm so excited bout that! blake got a job. he starts today. at dunkin donuts. he siad he is gonna hate it but hes got to do it he is gonna look for another one sometime. i miss him so much. ah... well i gotta go do my projects. ha like i'm gonna do them. but oh well. nothing else much to say. haven't talked to shannon in a week. i miss her! i need to call her. alright lovies... bye bye..

Sun, 08 May 2005 22:30:40 GMT

hmmm today has been kinda productive... i actually did my homework... well i sitll have some to do but i will get it done. i am waiting for my sis cause we want to go jogging... and then i'm gonna shower and do it. i cleaned my room some. and i went to CVS with the oldest and i got a running magazine that gave me some motivation type thing to go run! so i wanna run! hmmm... i can't wait till school is over. i just wanna lay around the house and read books all summer... but that isn't gonna happen... i am going to hate summer bio at edison. i can just feel it. the only good thing is jackie and i are taking it together so i'm not totally alone... jack and andy!! yea bitches. hmmm 2 more days 2 more days! (blake is coming home for all you idiots that didn't know) ah so excited! i need to call mike at the horse barn so i can set that stuff up and start riding. i gotta get some britches and boots first. that will be paychecks from the past 2 weeks and i will probably have to take some out from the bank.. i haven't put any in in a while... i got a CD player in my car! and i went shopping 2 weeks ago. but it was well worth it. i gotta save up for june 3rd when SHANNON and me and my sis are going to stay with my sis for the weekend... tax free week guys go shopping! well i'm gonna go do some homework so i can relax after my run. bye bye lovies.

Sun, 08 May 2005 15:14:02 GMT

1. What does your LJ nickname mean?
- i dunno. i think caro came up with it for an idea when i asked for new sn and i kept it.

2. Elaborate on your icon photo?
- i think it is self explainitory

3. Did you lie about your age anywhere on the net?
- probably...

4. How many LJ friends do you have?
- 20 something?

5. What is your current status?
- blake. <3 sorta...

6. What are you wearing right now?
- florida relays T. and cheer shorts.

7. What is life to you?
- good, has its ups and downs. (caros answer)

8. What is love to you?
- like nothing else.

9. What kind of people do you hate most?
- annoying childish people. fake people. snotty little bitches, etc...

10. What type of people do you like most?
- people who can sit around doing nothing and still have a good time.

11. What makes you happy?
- shay. blake. kelsey. running. just having fun with my friends.

12. Are you musically inclined?
- yes. i used to play the piano. cello. and viola. those were the days shay.

13. What would you do if you woke up one morning and found out that the person you love most didn't exist or was killed?
- i'd die right along with them. i wouldn't beable to do anything.

14. If you could go back in time and change ONE thing, what would you do?
- i'd probably change my 9th grade year

15. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day, what will you be?
- a horse!

16. Ever had a near death experience?
- yes. with caroline! her driving skills... are far from amazing. :)

17. Name ONE obvious personality quality you have.
- i giggle a lot... sometimes too much. especially with the XC team.

18. What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
- i wanna dance with somebody, yeeeeeeeeeahhhhhh i wanna feel the heat with somebody.. only cause it was caros answer so now its in my head..

19. Are you happy today?
- yes. its mothers day. and blake comes home tuesday. and i hung out with my big sis. we went to CVS and it was fun.

20. Who will cut and paste this first?
- dunno. probably no one?

Sun, 08 May 2005 03:50:51 GMT

these past 2 nights have been so fun! last night shay came over and we went for a little jog. lol won't go into detail on that. it was fun though. then we came home and got ready to see the birthday boy! my BUDDY! we went to wendys and hung out with him and his HOT friend for a bit. and then headed home. 'theres crumbs in my crotch!' 'i hope it doesn't make it look crusty!!!' haha too much fun... then we came home chatted with my ma for a little and head to bed. she got up and went to work and i fell back to sleep. then i just hung around today and was supposed to go to the movies with kelsey but it got late so i just went to her house. omg i had so much fun. we haven't hung out or talked in a while cause neither of us have been to practice. and for the few hours that i am at school i barely ever see her. so we had a lot of catching up to do and by golly it was fun! well its 11:45 or so. i got a lot of homework and need some sleep. tomorrow is mothers day. :) my mom and i are getting along well these days... its a good feeling...
xoxox.

Fri, 06 May 2005 22:43:37 GMT

so today i went and had a chat with mrs jones and broke down in tears which i knew i would cause i talked to kelsey last night bout all this stuff and broke down in tears so i told her i was gonna talk to mrs jones and i did. but i don't wanna talk bout that. then after i kinda 'calmed down' she was like i have to ask you something and she was like whats going on with this boyfriend of yours and we talked about him and of course she said what everyone says. and lately i have really been thinking about stuff... what if blake and i DO work out. and we stay together like we want to... hes not gonna go to college... he wants me to so he isn't holding me back and he wants what is best for me and wants me to do well. but i want him to do well too. and i do love him but then on the ride home i was listening to my cds and this song came on and i almost started to cry just cause like i dunno. it isn't that i don't think i can do better cause i have and i didn't like them. but i know that is what most people think... that i can do better but i don't want to i'm happy with the person i am with now.. he makes me happy and that is what is most important right now. is that i'm happy. and if everything he says to me is true then we will work out. i miss him so much he will be home in like 4 days.. today is almost over i just gotta make it through this weekend which will be easy and then monday and tuesday till 11:00 when i told him to call me. oh my god i can't believe this... ugh edison starts next week. its gonna be hell. oh well... oh today is my buddys BIRTHDAY! the big one eight. we might hang out tonight. shay is coming over here for a change for the past like 2 months! we are going jogging together... mmmk.. well thats bout it. bye..
heres the song i was listening to....

Better Man

Waitin', watchin' the clock, it's four o'clock, it's got to stop
Tell him, take no more, she practices her speech
As he opens the door, she rolls over...
Pretends to sleep as he looks her over
She lies and says she's in love with him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
Can't find a better man
Ohh...

Talkin' to herself, there's no one else who needs to know...
She tells herself, oh...
Memories back when she was bold and strong
And waiting for the world to come along...
Swears she knew it, now she swears he's gone
She lies and says she's in love with him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
She lies and says she still loves him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
Can't find a better man
Yeah...

She loved him, yeah...she don't want to leave this way
She feeds him, yeah...that's why she'll be back again
Can't find a better man
Can't find a better...man...
Ohh...ohh...
Uh huh...
Ohh...

i'm afraid thats how it is gonna be and i don't wanna end up like that. everyone starts telling me it isn't gona work adn i get scared and start thinking what if... it will all be okay when blake gets home and we see each other and talk it all out...

Wed, 04 May 2005 23:28:41 GMT

cheerleading banquet

me

me and heather

me and shannon thats our sand art!

PROM!

PROM!

me and caroline! raider baseball game!

Tue, 03 May 2005 23:40:12 GMT

i know everyone is tired of hearing about it but in one week my baby will be back! ah how exciting. i can't wait. i won't beable to see him the first day cause he has stuff to do and my parents aren't too thrilled about him plus i have class or else i would drive over there to see him. but just being able to talk to him and call HIM will be nice. i can't wait. so if next week i seem a little smily thats why. i did something to my knee. i dunno what it is though i hadn't ran in a week and it started hurting this weekend. like out of nowhere. so this sucks. it hurt during cheerleading today too real bad. oh well. hopefully it will get better on its own cause i don't feel like making a freakin doctors appointment just so they can say nope we can't see anything wrong with it just rest it cause ya know what i'm not gonna rest it... well i gotta go put my dishes in the dishwasher and get some homework done. oh by the way.... totally failed the AP test. and guess what! i don't give a shit!!! haha but i got a 100 on my term paper for sociology i hope i did good on the exam today too. i studied like an hour before it and then sorta forgot most of it! oh well... mkk bye bye lovies. PS to all track runners. i guess that would be ashley and brooklyne... i'm thinking of maybe haivng a pool party type thing one weekend soon... just for a kinda get together hang out thing for whoever wants to come... do you think people would come? think it would be fun? give me feedback on what ya think. thanks guys! :) mmmmk bye.

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 23:13:58 GMT

grr i miss blake so much i seriously can't do this anymore. i keep telling myself just one more week hang in there just one more week. but its been like 4 months since we've started talking again. it sucks. i just wanna hold him close to me. his letter was real nice i got a little teary eyed. i have this image in my head of how its gonna be when he gets back. i just hope it stays like that. i dunno what i would do if we didn't work out. i've spent so much time with this thing. i gave up darren and rusty. even though i kinda stopped liking them but oh well. its so hard. humph. oh well this week will go by fast and hopefully shay and i will have a repeat of this weekend! fun stuff dudes! all i've done is sit on my ass today its been nice well elliot just called so we are gonna chill later dudes.